Hi there,
So, last month I was SUPER GUNG HO about growing my audience and being a regular-newsletter-writing MASTER. I did a bunch of internal work and then JUMPED THE FUCK IN!
Aaaaaaand then I completely lost interest and just wanted to be left alone to code. For weeks. 😆
What I’ve learned about myself and my meandering motivation over many years is: Don’t fight it.
These shifts in my motivational moods are just the way my brain works.
- Wanting to be super-social will be followed by wanting to be a hermit.
- Wanting to be a self-help influencer will be followed by having no interest whatsoever in being ANY kind of influencer, and a vague sense of, “Why did I ever want to do that?!”
And this is reminding me, “being an influencer” was never my real goal (even if I sometimes think it is). What I really want is not to BE A CERTAIN THING. What I want is to LET THE INSPIRATION MOVE ME.
Working from inspiration means I’m incredibly inconsistent on a month-to-month time scale.
But if you look at the whole of my working life, I always come back to the same themes: self-liberation, radical self-love, permission to be who you already are, and giving the side-eye 😒 to anything that gets in the way of those things.
And from time to time, I feel like writing about these things. Other times, I don’t. 🤷🏼♀️
And that is fine. It really is.
There is so much pressure to be and do and have certain things, and not be or do or have other things, and I’m not immune to it. I avoid exposure to that pressure when I can, but some of it is still internalized.
So when I get THAT VOICE in my head (you know the one), I keep bringing myself back to what is true: I’m already OK. I don’t need to change who I am. I just need to keep saying YES to who I am.
That's how the inspiration keeps flowing and the sparkles stay sparkly.
So today I’m writing to remind you:
- your pacing is OK
- your mercurial motivation is OK
- your whims and fancies are OK
There is no right way to be. There is just the way you are. And that is great! It’s awesome, in fact. 🥳
Love and sparkles, ✨
Emma